It’s said that a journey is never a straight line, it’s full of peaks and valleys…and side quests. Sometimes you head one way and hit a dead end, and you retrace your steps thinking you really messed up when in reality, it was a series of important lessons that you needed before you could move forward. Think about how many times you’ve tried a new thing and it worked out perfectly the first time. I can think of maybe 2 times in my life that’s happened!!
I had a serious derailment a few years ago that nearly ended me. Things fell apart overnight and I felt very alone. However, it was during this time that I reached out to a whole different journey, trusting the process, and finding sure footing. I had to stop second guessing, and lean into the energy instead of running from it.
I began reading, taking classes in mediumship, and expanding beyond what I thought possible. I started opening myself to the process of unfoldment, and new spiritual gifts rose to the surface. Sitting in the power became a way to connect to my guide team, and recharge. Everything was going so well!
And then….doubt crept in…depression came next…and finally my physical health began to fail. Another valley, another side quest, and another very lonely time settled around me. I can’t really explain where it all went wrong because the process was so insidious..subtle. One day I realized, I was simply not ok. I needed change. I needed to find my way back.
I took time off to regroup and figure things out. I met some important women that are a huge part of why I didn’t give up. I had found like minded people on TIK TOK of all places. Our friendships blossomed and once again it felt like I could do what I’ve been asked to do. I began to figure out where my next steps needed to be.
I rejoined various groups with mediumship practice as the core. I dusted off my notes from classes I took, and I sat for practice readings, exchanging read for read. I was asked through mediumship students in practice readings, by my guide team to come back. There was so much work that I needed to do, and it was well past time to return.
Do you know what it’s like to have your guide team lecture you about your failings? It’s done in the most loving way, but it left me feeling naked. All of my shortcomings placed right in front of me in a way I couldn’t ignore. They showed me all the times I was close to a break through and gave up. I know now that the obstacles sent my way were intentional, a kind of test, and I failed.
Have you had this kind of intervention in your life about things you were ashamed to admit? What did YOU do next?
Well…I pretended it didn’t happen(I’m very stubborn),so my team upped the ante and began showing up in my dreams. They laid out the plan. They showed me what could be….
Now, that I’m back on track, I’ll share with you some of the steps I took, and where I am now in my next posts. Maybe these are words you need to hear. Maybe you’ve been waiting for your sign. I’ll tell you this…You are ready. If you are following my page, reading this blog, then you are ready to begin your own journey. We can help each other figure this out.
Much Love,
MadHawk
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